... [Part 2]

These thoughts run through my head, over and over

...

These are good...

Hah. I'm not in the wrong.

Okay, so you think World of Warcraft caused me to be unsocialable? Well, I think it's quite the other way around; me being left out caused me to buy World of Warcraft.

My supporting evidence

Ichigo's Bankai?!

Can you imagine if it just turns into a gun. Wouldn't that end a fight quickly? =P

Gwar.

Just a quick one.

Life's kind of mundane and boring at the moment. Had a good week with Graham and playing FIFA. I've beat him lots, he's beat me a few times and we've had quite a good laugh. We went to Sussex uni today and it's okay... The best accomodation is REALLY nice but Reading's wasn't much different and it's cheaper at Reading. We missed the Philosophy talk, which was a shame. Errr, the grounds aren't bad but Reading's nicer and bigger. Seems like Reading might be my first choice...

So, in other news I'm level 30 in WOW, very close to 31. It's a great game but it's too addictive and it almost cost me my head in Psychology.

Feel really tired. Me and Graham went to sleep at 3ish and woke up at 7:30...*yawn* Erm...Simon's a dick. I hate him.

So true.

I'm smiling

Just so you know, I'm happy. I can't really tell you why, though. I just know that I'm happy.

These are also mine...

That one that's second to last is how I feel. It explains me too well.

And these are mine...

The last one's kind of a weird one. I love hurricanes and I think they're amazing but I don't like people dying.

Hung by the rope of life.

"You just don't get it do you? You just don't know how close I am to doing it, do you?"

I've lost the will to live.

I was on the way back to the airport and several things went through my mind. I lost my phone, btw. I've reported it and everything. I won't get it back. The main point is this. I broke down in the bathroom and started crying. I couldn't stop. Mum heard and made me come out. Thenn, I broke down in my kitchen crying in my mum's arms. I just told her how everything in my life is crap and my life always goes this way. Things look up, then it all goes to shit.

My friendships are falling to pieces. Nearly every one of them.
I never get the girl I want. EVER.
My relationship sucks with God, how can I call myself a Christian?
I'm crap at school and I'm just a stupid person.
I'm crap at games.
I don't have a good family life. FAR, FAR from it.

Basically, I'm not good at anything. Everything sucks. I'm so close to killing myself now. I just want to leave. I can't take this anymore. I need out. I need out now.

Thanks for the reminder.

Thanks, mum. I'm not going out with Charlie. Well done, have a medal. *clap* *clap* Thanks.